Maya Hawke says she’s finding it difficult to release her personal music, calling it an emotionally overwhelming experience.
In a recent interview, the 27-year-old actress and singer admitted that she enjoys writing and recording songs with friends, but the real struggle comes in sharing that work publicly.
“It’s always weird. If I’m honest, I hate putting out music,” said Hawke, who lends her voice to the recently released Audible Original The Summer Oath. People magazine.
Hawke said promoting her music feels “like promoting your diary” because many of the songs are deeply personal.
“There’s this reference to the self, where it feels so great to write all these personal songs and record them and make them with your friends, but then you have to promote it, and it feels like you’re promoting your diary,” she continued.
“There’s something that I find really gross, and it’s painful and difficult,” Hawke adds. “No compliment will ever make me feel good, and every insult will hurt.”
She also said that criticism affects her deeply, explaining that negative comments hurt her more than compliments make her feel good.
Hawke is known for his acting roles in Stranger thingS, Get revenge, Inside out 2 And Once upon a time in Hollywood.
She started releasing music in 2019 with the singles Loving a boy And Stay open. Since then she has released several albums, including Blushing, Moss, Chaos angeland most recently Maitreya Cors.
Speaking about her latest album, Hawke said she feels both relieved and scared after releasing it, even comparing putting an album into the world to a funeral.
“I like to think of it as a funeral for the record rather than a release of it, because it was yours, it was a living thing that was movable and changeable, and now it’s this frozen dead thing in the world that people can talk about.”
“I’m really happy for people to hear it. I’m very flattered. And I’m so happy to let it go, but I’m terrified while I’m doing it,” Hawke added.
